Thursday, June 30, 2011

summer check point

what a strange and wonderful summer this has developed into so far.

and yet, I am in conflict.

I feel like I have two distinct and separate lives right now - one at "home" and one at school. the disconnect between the two feels startling right now. More than I thought possible, I love both of these current existences, but I have not yet discovered how to bring them together. How can I? They are starkly different.

I'm finding that I'm not willing to give either of them up, but at some point in the not-too-distant future, I will have to choose one direction or the other to walk toward. Stay up north or come back? It's too deep a thought to think in the midst of summer (even if the weather here feels more like early fall), so I will put off such thoughts until absolutely necessary and focus instead on the adventure in front of me right now.